Holy smokes I've written three times this week; that's a record for this semester, I think. Well, guess who rejected me. You guessed it. NOO! I didn't ask out the guy I like!!!! Petra rejected me. That's right. They're gonna be getting really busy so they don't have time to HIRE SOMEONE WHO WILL WORK FOR FREE. Oh well. I am going to now check out Ski Shack and hope and pray that works out. I went there yesterday with Kristin and we talked to a couple of really nice guys there about boarding and stuff. I need a snowboard!!! I sold mine two years ago because I thought "I'm not gonna be snowboarding anytime soon, I'm too poor," but hey, my dad pulled me a good surprise. So I have been lookin' around online cause I still have my clicker boots, but nope, nothing looks affordable and promising. I will have to do a more in-depth search I guess.

Okay, I have to go to work, so check ya'll later. Oh yeah......I'm on the Scotland Inverness team!!!! What was I thinking?.......

Emperor's New Groove quote of the day:
....wait, I can't think of one. I have to go to work now, remember?

AHHHH.....................the feeling I have been having the last two days........is sweetness. I have been missing Scotland and London and listening to Coldplay like no other. I even figured out how to play, "See you Soon," in a different tuning. I don't know how to do that but I made myself try and I figured it out. It was in E A E A C# e tuning. Pretty cool. Then I broke my D string. Good job. So I was walkin' around today listenin' to Coldplay, watching the leaves churning in the air and listening to their rustling and smiling cause I felt God walking right with me. He really made a beautiful world. I listened to my "Best of Beth" cd that MOo made me yesterday, featuring Coldplay (of course), Dashboard, Ben Harper, Jimmy, Gin Blossoms, David Gray, and Yo La Tenga (I think?), along with that fabulous "Wonderwall" by Oasis. She put on the cd "Mmmmmmm....good guitar for those rainy days." Yesterday wasn't particularly rainy, but I knew what she meant. I got in my melancholy mood cause of the music. It makes me feel like London. It's cloudy, rainy, mellow. In Britain, it feels like you're at the edge of the world. It feels like all these people are running around like mad in endless, meaningless cycles that will never end and show no hope. There's a feeling of being right at the brink of some new phase of humanity that will still not satisfy the world's needs. A feeling of drudgery. I don't know how else to describe it. Saying it like that may make it sound like I don't like London. Well, I do. Have you ever seen that video by The Verve for "Bittersweet Symphony" and the guy's walking around some city, just singing into the camera and not looking where he's going and he runs into all these random people.....or that Coldplay video, Yellow, where he just is walking on a cloudy beach singing at ya. Well, it's the mood that runs through those scenes that runs through the UK. But, for some reason, I really liked it. I enjoy that feeling of solitude and wonderment. But, I musn't let myself get too carried away, because I need that sunshiney-ness that seems to run through the rest of the world. See, when I think about Australia, I don't get that feeling. When I think of Spain or South America, that mood doesn't prevail. The UK has a strong uniqueness. So if any of my Scottish lassies are readin' this, you live in a cool place. But I wouldn't want to feel that way all the time. Britain needs Jesus just as much if not more than any other place. There's something sad in the fact that it used to be such a Christian country and now the faith is dead and the religion of it all is alive and well and not helping anyone's soul. hmmmmm..........

Speaking of Scotland, I had a dream about it the other night. I was talkin' to a bunch of Scottish kids, just hanging out, and then *flash* I was in a classroom in front, talkin' to all these kids about how I was gonna miss 'em and telling them that they had no clue how much they meant to me and how much I loved 'em. ??????

God is making me fly.......I need to not get carried away and stay grounded. There's battles a' plenty to be fought.

"......and then I ate all of his mashed potatoes..."~Heather at work

Emperor's New Groove quote of the day:
"No, I don't think I will...."~Kuzco on the bridge in a REALLY sarcastic voice

Woah....I totally went wakeboarding today, November 17th. Am I crazy or what? It was so fun though! I met my goal of going toeside out of the wake. Some of you may know what that means, some of you may not. I've had a very eye-opening weekend. God's revealed a lot of things to me and really spoken to me, just spoken His promises deep into my heart, and I've heard them like I've never heard 'em before this time. I believe Him now. I see it in my life. I see these things happening because of Him and through Him; things I never expected or never would have seen before. It can only be explained by putting God in the picture. I'm just in awe. He has taken so many things I clung to away from me this semester, to the point where I am truly forced to rely on Him. It is definitely hard, but I know that He does it cause He loves me. I can only really depend on Him anyways. Ya wanna know some of the things He's said? Well......
He's promised that He has the ONE for me, someone who will fit me just right. He's promised I need not worry about that. He's promised that I will be taken care of financially. He's promised that He will take care of my small group. He's promised to help my friends I care so deeply about, that it's not all up to me. He's told me that I have worth whether or not the guy I like likes me back. He's told me I have worth whether or not ANY guy EVER likes me AGAIN!!! :) (yes, this is a problem for many Christian girls to believe, I believe.) And He's whispered things to my heart in the middle of nights so lonely words that I could never utter here or anywhere else and which I would not know how to anyways. He's given me the most strange but utmost comfort. His love is unlike any other.

I was upset this weekend mainly cause I realized something pretty important about the guy I like that changes things up quite a bit, something I didn't really expect, and because I feel so burdened for my girl friends. Ones who don't know Jesus and who I want to help but don't know WHAT THE HECK I'm supposed to do and girls who do know Him but are struggling and hurting deeply just the same because they are listening to all the CRAP the enemy tells them about themselves and the world and believe it without even knowing they're being lied to. It's just not right and someone's gotta do something about it. ARGH!!!!!

Here's a holla out to my homie Mandy MOo! You are keepin' me strong by living the way you are and because of all the things you've helped teach me and taught me in the past, I've got a solid ground to stand on. The stuff we've been through has built me a good foundation and I thank you for having the guts to tell me your mind. A holla out to Lacy for doing the same--you have a beautifully open mind and spirit, and I miss you. To Mel as well, you don't know how much you've done for me. You're the one who brought me to my best friend by being one of mine.

Wakeboarding, ahh......what shall I say? I went third or fourth, can't remember, and wore Kristin's cool wet suit. I started off the dock and then took a "kerplunk" pretty quick-like. Kristin was like,"Remember to breathe when you hit the water." I'm like,"okay??" Yeah. When I hit the water, my body had a reaction that I never would've expected. It froze up! I couldn't breathe! I was tryin and nothin' was comin' in!!! Finally I calmed my whole self down and said,"Self, calm down now, ya hear?" (that was for you Kristin! he he) I fell many times but accomplished my goal I mentioned before. I got to see some AWESOME boarders though, they were just amazing. Our friend Jake took about five or six HORRID falls. Kristin cleared the wake on her jump!! It was pretty sweet. This girl is a stud, lemme tell you. After we ate and came home, I took her to see a dance concert. I loved it but she didn't like it much. It was so cool, I finally go to see this classic dance I've wanted to see for a long time. I even dressed up.

I went to Petra Rock Climing Gym on Thursday to talk to the manager about doing my practicuum there. I think it might work out. I have to work 90 hours at a place in my field and stuff. I think it will be fun!!!

"Hey, and don't let that bird crap on you!"~Thomas on the boat today, after givin' some pointers to one of the guys boarding

Emperor's New Groove quote of the day:
"....make my potatoes a salad..."~Kuzco and Yzma, at the SAME TIME!