I suck at completing my 'to-do' lists. I did one thing on it today. One. I sold some stuff at Plato's and then bought myself some cds with the moolah...I'm excited about my Nada Surf album, and bought some classic Cars. Sweet.
I like to eat. This kind of sucks, as I want to get in shape. So I've resorted to cooking lots lately, and it's been fun. I made a sweet n' sour meatball dish with rice in the crockpot last night, which turned out real good. Also some homemade chicken pot pie, and tonight, some salmon and fettuccine alfredo with broccoli. Yum! Now I'm sittin' here thinkin' about my macadamia nut/almond/pecan pie I made. There's one piece left, and I'm no longer hungry, but I want it just the same. Kinda ticked at my mom cause she got me some white chocolate cookie bites for Christmas that I didn't think I wanted but, whoops! I put them in the fridge and now they're irresistable. My freezer is packed full of frozen fruit to make lots of smoothies. I wish eating healthy wasn't so expensive though! Anywho, I think one and all should pray for my motivation for the new year. I have zero. For anything but a job. Mmmm...check ya later! p.s. man I need a skateboard!

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Too sad. I plan on praying and thinking over some things like fasting, tithing, and music piracy.
Some thoughts: though I believe in tithing I have failed to do it consistently for 4 and a half years of my 5 as a Christian; I think illegally downloading music is wrong yet I still own about two or three mix cds of music I didn't buy (ugh, this can get confusing as a member of my family is the one who copied them for me~is this still wrong since he is a family member?...is it okay for ANY member of a family to share music or does each individual member of the family need to own his or her own bought copy of the music?...is the line drawn at one's immediate family? etc. etc.~will someone please explain this to the masses *ahem, I mean very few* who would like to cease playing pirated music but have no real understanding of the boundaries?) And dude, I never fast anymore. I was praying Monday night and felt like I should fast Tuesday(not as in I felt myself into thinking that I needed to...nope, pretty sure it was God) but I completely forgot and didn't do it.
Anyways, please forgive me if I seem short, quiet, withdrawn, cynical and snobby in my conversation, etc., lately. I am trying to work through a lot with God right now, realizing that a pit of putrid bitterness has slowly dripped into my heart and working with Him (er, letting Him work on me with jovial hammer to break my heart) to let that truth sink in and let Him remove my sin.
As a sidenote, I felt like not using the word "God" or capitalizing "Him" throughout this post for some reason because I did not want to 'offend' anyone...but honestly, I don't care. It doesn't matter! This is really what I believe, folks, and if that 'offends' you so bad, please refrain from reading my blog. Really. My purpose is not to anger anyone. Then again, maybe no one who doesn't agree with me reads this, so it doesn't matter. Either way, there's my 'disclaimer,' if you will.

P.S. Go make a donation to the American Red Cross for disaster relief in Thailand, Indonesia, etc. at Amazon.com if you've got $5 or more to give in that fat American wallet of yours...they've already raised more than 2 million!