Woohoo I'm back, and 'the times, they are a changin'.' Everything is. It's hard to deal with. I miss my dad and my family in general, as well as Glen and Paula. I'm gonna be gone in just a few months, and then graduate, and then mebbe move out of Springfield forever...it's strange to think about. I am ready to be made ready to leave this community I have here, that has shaped and morphed into something I didn't expect. Disappointments and hurt surround me, but that's all part of a group anyways, isn't it? I'm not saying the community is bad; nope, it's in fact, so darn good that I am scared for myself when I have to leave it and find a new one! Alas, the more time that goes by, the more I realize how little I know. All I can say I know is Love. I know when it exists, I know that it is real. It is the only thing that is...well, I cannot describe it's hardness and reality because we confuse real love with fleeting feelings so much it may just end up being confusing.

Two of my bestest friends in the world are getting married these next coupla months. Mel is on Saturday. Man, is it going to be a joyous, wonderful day. I don't know what I am doing (I'm the maid of honor) but Mel is quite forgiving of that.

I've decided to make a happy songs cd. A few selections: "Top of the World" (I don't know the exact name of it) by Juliana Theory on Emotion is Dead, #10 on Jimmy's Bleed American, "Clocks," by Coldplay, and many others. They have to have this special vibe that makes me wanna spin and spin around and just dance around like a goofball and get a rush of joy in my heart and make me think of special people in my life and being with them. Still compiling the list so if you have any suggestions, lemme know. (Nobody will prally but hey, that's okay!)

One last word...seek God and you shall find Him. Seek to do His will. Understand the reasons why you believe, and stand firm. Build a solid foundation. Seek His love and accept it and stop letting yourself and the enemy tear you down, or you will fall. This world is a battleground and we need to wake up and see that. Matthew 25