Hello everybody. I'm in a dreamy mood from listening to "Amsterdam" by Coldplay like a million times. It has haunting piano and schtuff in it. Mmmm...I hope my pal Gentri comes to my small group tonight, that would be great. Better than the porn rally goin' on tonight. Nah, it's really a presentation on the destructive power of porn. I'm waitin' for Charity to come over so we can pray and play guitar. I'm so excited about Scotland. I get to go to retreat this weekend and I am also super duper excited about that. I CAN'T WAIT. I want to go now. No school. I talked to my mom today and she doesn't like it that I am not gonna make even $30,000 my first year out of college. I personally don't care but she's just like, "Well, you can get a job in some other area!" Okay, so WHY would I spend five years in school and close to 20,000 in loans to get a job in another field? Hmmm? Don't think so. Then I told her that my plan to go move to Reno and work at a resort there after college is starting to feel more and more like just a back-up plan than THE plan, but I don't know what the number one plan is, and that infuriated her even more. She just doesn't understand. It seems like no one does. I finally get peace about having my options open after I graduate and now my parents are telling me what to do? This is so weird. They've never done this before. They've always just been 100% supportive of anything I wanted, and now they are like,"MOVE TO RENO!!" Argh. Okay, okay, I admit I feel pretty darn stupid for not knowing what the heck I am gonna do. I sincerely don't know. There's some things I know I won't ever do, but all kinds of other things are open to me. I just don't know what things God is going to open up this summer. I am goin' to Scotland in May and then Stanford with Glen and Paula~I really think that God will speak to me about my future in the ministry. Sure, I'm gonna prally secure an internship at a resort around Lake Tahoe for next spring to fulfill major requirements, but that just doesn't sit right in my heart. I dunno. I'm just waitin' for God's words on this. Until then, I know what He wants me to do. Check ya'lls lata!

"Did you just say, 'Let's face it, cowboy.'?"~my friend Erica at work Sat. night