Okay....I really need to calm down. I have been really, really boy crazy lately. There's just a few I can't get over. And this one guy definitely knows, cause I hug him like, twenty times a day every time I see him and everyone else hears me talkin' bout how cute I think he is. My manager is even it on it!!! Dumb. I'm dumb. I guess I am just goin' hormonal (like you know, goin' postal, ha ha~okay sorry if that wasn't funny). I just know that the Christian I like doesn't like me, he likes one of my friends (well, at least I think he does, not sure yet though) and would therefore never ask me out, so I get all caught up in this other guy. But I would never go out with this other one cause he's not a Christian. It just boggles my mind. Every morning I wake up and it all doesn't matter. I think to myself, "Why in Heaven's name did I act like that last night?" Then I get around the boys again and I go nutso. What is wrong with me? I'm glad I'm not crazy about a bunch of 'em, but still, two is enough. And this one that doesn't even share my faith--just reminds me of Vin Diesel--he's really super sweet, but that doesn't cut it. ARGH!!!! I'm sure that over Christmas break I will get over both of them just cause I won't be around 'em. That will be good for the soul.....but then......who knows? Most likely I will just hang out with 'em one time and it will start all over again. Hopefully not though. In the case of not being in a dating relationship, distance does not make the heart grow fonder. It's happened before. GEEEEAWWWW!!! Oh yeah....today Mel and her mom and dad came into Applebee's, and it made me so happy. I hugger her and her parents cause I haven't seen them forever, and her dad said he was mad at me cause I didn't spend Thanksgiving with them, and I have for the last three years. I was missed! Well, let me tell you, I did miss them super duper much too. AH.....I love that girl and her fam.

I had a fantabulous (in the words of Lacy) Thanksgiving. I collected some great quotes that may actually make you guys laugh and not just me. We spent the day on Wednesday in Branson (me, Charity, and Berliana) and I finally caved in and bought meself some new pants for work. Then we drove to K.C. We went right by Andy's church!!! I was like,"Let's visit him!" but that wasn't possible anyways. So that night I met Charity's brother Tim and his wife, and their fiesty Jack Russel terrier Lily. She was CRAZY. It was great. She had a little problem with snapping at people's faces, but otherwise she was so cute. We played Scattergories, then watched sappy love story movie "Serendipity," then went to bed. Next morning we watched the Macy's day parade and then ate. I was the first one done--agh! But I was also the first one served up so.....finally we packed up and drove back to Branson, and stayed the night there before coming home to work a grand double shift at the Bee on Friday. Oh, yeah, on Tuesday night we went and watched "Triple X" at the $5 theater in Branson and then saw the Shepherd of the Hills lights. It was great, great fun. :)

I'm tired....need to do homework....want to read my book......don't want to do homework......want some hot mocha-flavored coffee or some chai from the mudhouse........zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz........

"She let's ninja farts!!!"~Tim, talking about Lily's bodily functions

"...it was a fro window!"~Jeremiah last night at work

"My sister has bubbly toes!!!"~Megan at work tonight

Emperor's New Groove quote of the day:
"Maybe you should consider re-labeling some of them..."~Kronk to Yzma about her potions

Hello folks. I get to go home with pal Charity today, and spend Thanksgiving with them. Should be nice. I got to play-crap-wait--no. Nevermind. Anyways......Bet you're all wondering what that was about. Mandy is the only one who knows......okay I'll quit bein' all mysterious. It's just something I realized I'm not supposed to tell.

I changed my title of this page to Nicoustical's Rantings because, well, I don't really rant daily. But, I have been lately. But usually I don't, so. Hope that makes sense. I have to work on a paper today and other stuff tomorrow to prepare for next week. I'm wondering if I want to go to my workplace's annual Christmas party. It's gonna be at Jordan Valley Ice Park, and there's gonna be no alcohol and if anyone comes in drunk, they're getting kicked out. I have NEVER gone out with my friends from work, although I've been invited many times. My friend Toby has invited me to his parties several times; however, last time he had a kegger, while he was handing out the maps to his house, he looked at me and goes,"I would invite you but I know you won't come." Hmmmm. This might make me feel bad, but I just never have done it. They all get it now. I'm not like them. I hope they know I don't think I'm better than them or anything. I love them all very much. I just don't want to see any of them emaciated---wait!--no, inibriated. Is that how you spell it? I'm a champion speller, and I have a feeling that that word was all wrong. Well, not really. I mean, not a champion speller. I am making no sense, am I? I'm tired.

I started reading That Hideous Strength by C.S. Lewis. It is very interesting so far. But, I kinda wanna save it for the car ride to Dallas with my pal Laura, when I go home. I miss my family SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH. I don't know what to do with myself. I just wanna be with them. Badly.

Yesterday my friend Lacy came over and visited me and talked with me. It was definitely an unexpected but wonderful surprise. I miss her. We had a nice long talk and I got to hear about some things in her life, and I blabbed quite a bit like I always do. Her dad, who has been a Christian for about 9 months or so now, sounds like he's doing great. I'm excited for her and him. She's going to live in Guam all next semester, so that's also why it was good to talk to her. Yeah, I said Guam. You know that little teeny spot on the globe out in the middle of the Pacific ocean? Yeah, that's where she's going. Crazy girl. :)

Today I had an evaluation in my Management class, and I actually wrote comments on the back. I feel bad now. Oh, I just didn't write nice things about him. I wrote that he's boring, lectured the whole time, never smiled. And all theses things he did do. But now I feel I was a little harsh. Or just plain ol' harsh. Man!

Our Scotland team this year is going to be awesome. I am so excited. You all wanna know how I feel about the trip now? Huh? It's a shocker--completely at peace. It feels so right. Weird huh? I haven't been worrying about it the last few weeks and now that I'm going, I feel that that's just the way things were meant to be, that I'm meant to go. AHHHHHHH.........

"......she was a good lady and all.....I mean, more power to her, ya know?...but....."~my pal Gentri at work the other night, while we were discussing the Virgin Mary and people praying to her

Emperor's New Groove quote of the day:
"Yeah..that's a harp~and that's a dress!"~Shoulder Devil

THIS SUCKS!!!! I am missing two AWESOME shows cause I'm leavin' for break before they get here. Chevelle is going to be in SPRINGFIELD on December 18th!!!!! Dang it!!!! and then Jimmy is gonna be in St. Louis and KC Dec.14th and 17th or somethin' like that. Man. No shows in Texas or Nevada, where I will be. oh well.